Aydan's Life · Depression · Discrimination · Healthcare · Mental Health · Mental Illness · Transgender

Suicidal Idealations

I want to die. I'm so tired of struggling, so tired of fighting, so tired of it being insinuated that my life is meaningless because I'm not good enough at being a minority.  Yesterday was supposed to be a good day. It was supposed to be the beginning of the process to start my chest… Continue reading Suicidal Idealations

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Aydan's Life

A New Kind of Normal

I've never really had anything close to a social life, even when I was in high school. Even though I'm an extrovert I've spent most of my life in a reclusive state. Part of this is the fact that I am transgender, and the discrimination that I've faced because of it, part of it is… Continue reading A New Kind of Normal

A Broken Country · Aydan's Life · Depression · Discrimination · Mental Health · Mental Illness · Suicide

Outsider

Why did you come to New York just to be homeless? This really should have been the first clue that the people who are supposed to help people like those in my family didn’t want to waste their time on someone like us. It’s the same everywhere you go though I suppose, especially now with… Continue reading Outsider

Aydan's Life · Depression · Poetry · Suicide

Beggar

He begged for help in the darkness and despair, Groped blindly for a savior but no one was there. The pressure built, forcing him further down, Isolated, and lost there was no one around. Till the day he played the knife down his arm, No one thought that he would self harm The freshly fallen… Continue reading Beggar

Depression · Mental Health · Mental Illness · Suicide · Transgender · Transgender Health

Nightmares, Lost words, and Side-Effects

​I don’t know what’s worse, being hopeless depressed or waking up crying from nightmares. I haven’t had dreams this bad in years. At least with the deep, dark depression I could escape when I was asleep, I could find something worth continuing on for in my dreams. Granted I hated waking up from my dreams,… Continue reading Nightmares, Lost words, and Side-Effects

Depression · Healthcare · Mental Health · Mental Illness · Suicide · Transgender · Transgender Health

Major Depressive Disorder…

For over half of my life I’ve been depressed, not just the cause kind of depression that so many people suffer, I’m not that lucky. I have had this deep rooted, dark miasma of a mental illness since I was fifteen years old. The first time I told my mom I was depressed, she said… Continue reading Major Depressive Disorder…

Aydan's Life · Depression · Discrimination

Gypsy

More often than not I’ve been homeless, I’ve never really stayed in one place more than two years since high school. I don’t know if it’s the fact that I moved around a lot when I was growing up, the fact that I’ve never really felt at home anywhere I’ve lived, or the fact that… Continue reading Gypsy