The hardest part of my life is seeing people around me constantly having the world move to benefit them. It doesn't matter if they work hard or not at all, all the pieces of the puzzle seems to slip effortlessly into place and their lives improve while mine continues to deteriorate. I've had fantastic ideas… Continue reading Nothing
One of the most difficult aspects of being transgender or transsexual is finding a decent doctor that is willing to treat you like a human being. Since beginning my transition I've dealt with doctor after doctor that ignored my concerns about my healthcare, but never in my life have I ever had a doctor treat… Continue reading Transphobia and Healthcare
The recurring theme in healthcare when it comes to being transgender is either lack of knowledge or outright discrimination, both of which I have experienced at the hands of doctors sworn to first do no harm according to the Hippocratic oath traditionally taken by doctors. The most recent case of discrimination I've experienced has been… Continue reading Medical Nightmare
I want to die. I'm so tired of struggling, so tired of fighting, so tired of it being insinuated that my life is meaningless because I'm not good enough at being a minority. Yesterday was supposed to be a good day. It was supposed to be the beginning of the process to start my chest… Continue reading Suicidal Idealations
I don’t know what’s worse, being hopeless depressed or waking up crying from nightmares. I haven’t had dreams this bad in years. At least with the deep, dark depression I could escape when I was asleep, I could find something worth continuing on for in my dreams. Granted I hated waking up from my dreams,… Continue reading Nightmares, Lost words, and Side-Effects
For over half of my life I’ve been depressed, not just the cause kind of depression that so many people suffer, I’m not that lucky. I have had this deep rooted, dark miasma of a mental illness since I was fifteen years old. The first time I told my mom I was depressed, she said… Continue reading Major Depressive Disorder…
With the upcoming presidential catastrophe, I'm still on the fence as to who to vote for. My candidate is clearly a wash and I'm left feeling a bit betrayed by his actions. Lucky for me (sarcasm) there's a slew of other people to look into. One of these people I'm looking into is Gov. Gary… Continue reading Politics…ugh.