Driving in the winter really isn’t great fun if you living in a state that doesn’t prepare for the dangerous weather conditions in advance. This was the case Saturday evening when I was headed back to the house that my wife, two sons and I had been staying in. The misty rain that had been… Continue reading No One Bothered to Stop
I have a love-hate relationship with the holidays and each year when November rolls around I am struck with this mixture of giddy depression and a longing for my childhood years before my family started breaking apart. While my family (my wife, children and I) don’t celebrate Thanksgiving now because of what it truly means,… Continue reading Holidays
Never before, in my thirty-two years have I ever been this completely devastated by the actions of a political figurehead. Anyone that follows me on Facebook or Twitter knows that I was a Bernie Sanders supporter and I was really cheering for him to take the presidential candidacy for the Democratic party, and even become… Continue reading Devastated
I'm headed back to Arkansas, it's really the only place that I have to go if I want to keep my sanity and not kill myself. Over the past two years, I've come to realize what a horrible, unwelcoming place that parts of Virginia are or have become. When it comes to community, it doesn't… Continue reading A New Start for the Summer
The evening before last I had fully intended to kill myself. I was, and frankly still am, tired of the struggle. I’m tired of nothing ever seeming to get better no matter how hard I fight. I’m tired of seeing facebook post after facebook post of states in the US making laws that blatantly descriminate… Continue reading Empty
I don’t know what to do. I’m tired of fighting a losing battle, the same thing each and every day with nothing getting better and everything getting worse. No matter what I do, how hard I try to make things better, it never works. I am a failure. Everyone tries to tell me that it… Continue reading
But those are plans for the future, and worry as we may with them there is no way to make them anything other than wishes and hopes at this point. Hopes that my family can find a new home before my depression pushes me over the edge. Hopes that my family can find a way to sustain ourselves despite the overwhelming odds and disabilities that we face. Dreams that we can breathe easy one day and be happy again. Hopes and dreams are all we have right now, aside from each other.