Once a Victim, Now a Survivor Award

Wow. When I woke up this morning to see a nomination for this award I was shocked, nearly speechless and just shoved my phone at my wife and said “read”. Tears welled up in my eyes because I had made a difference in someone’s life. Over the last few weeks, I have been really emotional because of everything that is going on in my life right now. I’ve been off my testosterone for nearly three weeks because of my surgery, I’m stressing about raising money so that I can attend my brother’s wedding, and I’ve been battling with depression. I probably should be on medication for the depression, but as long as I’m not suicidal, I’ll deal.

I would like to thank A Strawberri Pushed Through Insanity for the nomination and for taking the time to read my blog. Each and every view, comment or reblog that I get excites me so much. My blog is my voice, it allows me to be able to be heard from a place that is comfortable to me, and I am touched that anyone would read my ramblings even more so when I can make a difference in someone’s life.

That is after all how I measure the worth of my life.

Many years ago when I was on that razor’s edge, about to take the step into oblivion someone touched me in such a way that I decided if I lived for nothing else, I could live to make a difference.

So here are the ins and outs of the award:

This award is for those who have gone through mental illness of any kind, abuse, trauma, and especially PTSD. Here are the rules:

1.Thank the blogger that nominated you.
2.Nominate 5 – 10 bloggers to pass the award to.
3.Post questions for your nominees to answer (You may use the same as these below)
4.Inform your nominees and post a comment in their blog to let them know they’ve been nominated.

Here are the questions for my nominees. Feel free to skip any questions that you want to. You can fill in your own questions as you feel appropriate.

1. In what way do you feel blogging can help people with psychological trauma or mental illness?
2. Has blogging helped with your healing, or personal journey, if so how?
3. What fictional character can you relate most with and why?

I believe I’ve already done number one on the list, but again Thank you! (once is never enough for me. ;)) Nominating 5 to 10 bloggers is going to be difficult because I really don’t follow many people. I have to come back to that (and the last rule) in a few days. I suppose it’s time that I start reading what’s out there in the WordPress/Blogging world.

On to the questions:

1. In what way do you feel blogging can help someone with psychological trauma or mental illness?

Blogging for someone with a psychological trauma, mental illness, or anyone can be a release. We don’t have to put our real self out there, in the sense that we don’t have to leave the house or meet someone face to face and come out of our comfort zone to talk about things that we have gone through. It’s a safe way to be able to get things off over our chest and can be as therapeutic as going to group therapy.

2. Why would you recommend blogging to someone who suffered from mental illness?

For the same reason that blogging can help someone with mental illness or trauma; blogging can be therapeutic. There are often things that we want or need to say but often don’t trust our therapist with or don’t want to see a therapist because of the social stigma attached to mental illness and blogging is a way to work through that. We can write or post with anonymity and don’t always have to attach our name to our feelings, so we are safe from our own perceptions of how people would react if they knew we were “that person”.

3. How has blogging helped with your healing or personal journey?

Blogging about your current emotional state allows you to later go back and see patterns in your thoughts and behavior if the behavior is negative you can work to change it and recognize triggers. Recognizing what triggers (if any) destructive behavior can help you avoid or learn to cope with the trigger and the response. I have a really great therapist here in Richmond, VA who has helped me with an extreme anxiety in response to police lights.

(Nearly seven years ago I was handcuffed and held in the back of a squad car for three hours because I told a “mental health professional” that I was transgender. Before I started seeing my current therapist, it took me seven years to be able to go back to a therapist, I had panic attacks any time that I would see a cop car and it would be worse if they had blue lights on.) He told me that anxiety, like I was having, is the response to the anticipation of what could possibly happen. By recognizing that trigger and learning what it was and the response to it I have been able to work through my police induced panic attacks.

I will edit this post when I’ve found the bloggers that I would like to nominate for this award and list them above.

My nominations (I’m working on them!):

Transitioning Perspectives

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